She's beautiful been beautiful her whole life
but she's been taught so many lies
told psychologically that she wasn't good enough because she doesn't look like them
she's not built up like them and she doesn't have the light skin
the wavy or straight hair that they desire to lift her higher
because she was born dark skinned
men
tell her if she was just half a shade lighter she'd be fire
liars
because she doesn't fit the magazine's definition of what's in
she begins to blame her skin
her nose her hair her eyes
as reasons to why
the men in her life
never stayed with her long
but that's wrong
she blamed herself for years of pain for years of trying to be
what she already was
I hunger for the blood
the blood of these people who told her she wasn't pretty that she wasn't lovely
because they lied
they told her that because she didn't line up with a magazine's description
she can't fit some man's prescription
because she doesn't fit this cookie cutter mold
well she can't because honestly she's so much more
more than what they took the time to show her she was
her family had no time to show her love
mama and daddy both worked themselves to death
to provide everything on the shelf
but had problems developing her sense of self
so when she grows up she has a deficit
her image of self is derelict
empty and void
because her parents never showed her what she was over society's noise
that she was much more valuable than money and cars
now she's chasing all that plus some rich star
who can make her feel worth pursuits and pleasure
but nobody ever told her she was beautiful beyond measure
Saturday, May 8, 2010
This is What Goes On In My Mind.....Hope It Looks Familiar
hey
ever wonder what happened to our sense of self?
if it packed up and just left or did we just push it off some remote cliff somewhere off the coast of California.....
if it was in us. we could just get it back. it's deeper than that
we don't get taught sense of self...it's something that people say develops..but it only develops if it's been properly cultivated......
which indicates a teaching on some level or another
but you can't teach yourself how to respect yourself......thus is the problem. no body teaches children what they are worth, so they just accept society's substitutes
if you don't know it's disrespect. you don't know you need to grow
not if they disrespected themselves first.
they condition themselves to believe that is normal or acceptable unless they are taught better
if they aren't caught early enough it can lead to a life of chasing acceptance in false expressions of respect/love which is often confused with lust.
lol it just gets easier to see things once you strip them down to bare basics.....and the basic problem with us as a people is we have been taught how to seem successful versus how to be successful....we have been taught how to look good, walk good, talk good.....but not how to sustain a good life....taught by our own culture that having things = success......when success is being happy with what you have....looking successful versus defining your own success.......people fail to teach children how to be versus how to seem....seeming to be right or good without actually having right or good in your heart is simple hypocrisy....on a broader scale that defines American policy
and it sickens me how parents don't teach sons and daughters their true value but instead a relative value.....you are only valued by what you produce or create......you aren't valueable by virtue of being who you are....BIG PROBLEM
What happened to our parents? think about that for a minute.....I'm talking about the failures of that generation and how it was passed onto this one.....how they became slaves of "the life" and had no time to really raise children effectively.....we are headed for the same end if we do not stop long enough to care what our children take in.....I think about raising children because it's coming....and I do not fear it.....but too many just lay down because they lack the foundation of love and respect for self and by extent respect of others.....
teachers don't raise kids
parents do
and that's definitely what I plan on doing
both really. lol
cuz I'll be home enough so I can effectively monitor what they take in.....and make sure they get full development as people.....the wife will help when she can.....I'd understand if she's too busy and can't always be there.....but she would pitch in whenever possible for her to....she's responsible for them just like I am. (tm)
ever wonder what happened to our sense of self?
if it packed up and just left or did we just push it off some remote cliff somewhere off the coast of California.....
if it was in us. we could just get it back. it's deeper than that
we don't get taught sense of self...it's something that people say develops..but it only develops if it's been properly cultivated......
which indicates a teaching on some level or another
but you can't teach yourself how to respect yourself......thus is the problem. no body teaches children what they are worth, so they just accept society's substitutes
if you don't know it's disrespect. you don't know you need to grow
not if they disrespected themselves first.
they condition themselves to believe that is normal or acceptable unless they are taught better
if they aren't caught early enough it can lead to a life of chasing acceptance in false expressions of respect/love which is often confused with lust.
lol it just gets easier to see things once you strip them down to bare basics.....and the basic problem with us as a people is we have been taught how to seem successful versus how to be successful....we have been taught how to look good, walk good, talk good.....but not how to sustain a good life....taught by our own culture that having things = success......when success is being happy with what you have....looking successful versus defining your own success.......people fail to teach children how to be versus how to seem....seeming to be right or good without actually having right or good in your heart is simple hypocrisy....on a broader scale that defines American policy
and it sickens me how parents don't teach sons and daughters their true value but instead a relative value.....you are only valued by what you produce or create......you aren't valueable by virtue of being who you are....BIG PROBLEM
What happened to our parents? think about that for a minute.....I'm talking about the failures of that generation and how it was passed onto this one.....how they became slaves of "the life" and had no time to really raise children effectively.....we are headed for the same end if we do not stop long enough to care what our children take in.....I think about raising children because it's coming....and I do not fear it.....but too many just lay down because they lack the foundation of love and respect for self and by extent respect of others.....
teachers don't raise kids
parents do
and that's definitely what I plan on doing
both really. lol
cuz I'll be home enough so I can effectively monitor what they take in.....and make sure they get full development as people.....the wife will help when she can.....I'd understand if she's too busy and can't always be there.....but she would pitch in whenever possible for her to....she's responsible for them just like I am. (tm)
Conversation on Family Between Myself and Anthony Lewis
Anthony Lewis:" That will be one of my greatest accomplishments...teaching my son that a woman is the greatest thing to walk to earth...that she is second to none, but is rarely properly appreciated...that in himself, he holds to key to some queen unlocking the fortune of her potential.."
Daniel Johnson:" careful that he doesn't put woman too high, she walks on clay feet too.....I will teach him what she is worth......and I will teach my daughter(s) what her worth is and what she is to expect and accept from a man.....all she will have to then do is look at the men in her immediate life....after the initial teachings of her worth, her value, who she is, what really defines her and why daddy loves her like he does.....and the son will learn how to value himself enough not to seek his own value or validation within the embrace of a woman, he will learn what makes him who he is and that he is valuable and valued by that alone and that what he produces only accentuates that......he will learn how to BE, not how to SEEM....they both will. He also will learn why daddy loves him like he does.....for love isn't limited to daughters......such is the problem with "men" these days.....love and affection are seen as soft and "womanly"
Anthony Lewis:" I completely agree. I do not fear fatherhood...I see it as one of many opportunities to leave this world better than I found it...and what better way than to raise a productive and profound member of society. I also see it as a way to share the love I have inside of me..and children are vessels of love and info; as they grow, the two coalesce and give the foundation for who the child will be."
Daniel Johnson:" exactly the way I feel about it bro.......God is our foundation.....and we build everything on that strong foundation......and when they have outgrown our house....the foundation will allow them to tap into what we ingrained deep within them as children. the entire meaning behind training up a child in the way they should go and when they are old (enough to make decisions) they will not leave it."
Daniel Johnson:" it takes a MAN and a WOMAN to raise children......not a Man and a grown girl or a grown boy and a WOMAN but two mature, whole, complete people who come together and intertwine the greatest parts of themselves to create something even greater than the parts"
Anthony Lewis:" Yessir. A child, no matter what, is the sum of the parts of those who make it...however, if you provide love and support as the adhesive for said parts, using tools made by God, the child can succeed no matter how many obstacles lie in its path. A man and woman are meant to have children because they are the most prepared for the labor of love it is to rear a youth...they are the most likely to base that child's growth in His flowerpot, rather than the loose soil that is entertainment/society."
Daniel Johnson:" careful that he doesn't put woman too high, she walks on clay feet too.....I will teach him what she is worth......and I will teach my daughter(s) what her worth is and what she is to expect and accept from a man.....all she will have to then do is look at the men in her immediate life....after the initial teachings of her worth, her value, who she is, what really defines her and why daddy loves her like he does.....and the son will learn how to value himself enough not to seek his own value or validation within the embrace of a woman, he will learn what makes him who he is and that he is valuable and valued by that alone and that what he produces only accentuates that......he will learn how to BE, not how to SEEM....they both will. He also will learn why daddy loves him like he does.....for love isn't limited to daughters......such is the problem with "men" these days.....love and affection are seen as soft and "womanly"
Anthony Lewis:" I completely agree. I do not fear fatherhood...I see it as one of many opportunities to leave this world better than I found it...and what better way than to raise a productive and profound member of society. I also see it as a way to share the love I have inside of me..and children are vessels of love and info; as they grow, the two coalesce and give the foundation for who the child will be."
Daniel Johnson:" exactly the way I feel about it bro.......God is our foundation.....and we build everything on that strong foundation......and when they have outgrown our house....the foundation will allow them to tap into what we ingrained deep within them as children. the entire meaning behind training up a child in the way they should go and when they are old (enough to make decisions) they will not leave it."
Daniel Johnson:" it takes a MAN and a WOMAN to raise children......not a Man and a grown girl or a grown boy and a WOMAN but two mature, whole, complete people who come together and intertwine the greatest parts of themselves to create something even greater than the parts"
Anthony Lewis:" Yessir. A child, no matter what, is the sum of the parts of those who make it...however, if you provide love and support as the adhesive for said parts, using tools made by God, the child can succeed no matter how many obstacles lie in its path. A man and woman are meant to have children because they are the most prepared for the labor of love it is to rear a youth...they are the most likely to base that child's growth in His flowerpot, rather than the loose soil that is entertainment/society."
Conversation Between Myself and Jason Johnson
Daniel:
First off man has been misdefined.....told that he's as good as what he produces...when a man is what he does, not what he has to show....that line of thinking corrupts relationships both with women and with other men and ultimately with God Himself....for they cease being images of God and become an image of created matter......
Jason:
men have been uneducated by our forefathers
many things have played an influence in bringing down the foundation of manhood
Jason:
drugs, alochol
the miseducation of men mistreating their women in front of their sons
Jason:
men out here not seeing their true potential because the enemy fill their mind with poison
Daniel:
yes men have been not educated by the fathers and reeducated by society and those men went on to teach their retaught philosophy to their sons...which was not at all how or what they were to learn....when God instituted family the man was taught by God and the man was to teach the family according to how God taught him and what God taught him he was.....men got away from teaching and even being taught...and as a result, everything that men have touched has become corrupted. they don't know what makes them up....they don't know what makes up the woman therefore they cannot understand how to raise sons and daughters and seek anything to fill that God void....be it drugs alcohol women or other pleasures.....
Jason:
the enemy knows how to break down the foundation of men by taking away the leader in their household! We as men have to come together no matter what for the Glory of the Lord
Daniel:
we allowed him to break down the foundation by ignoring the true foundation.....God. once we did that, it was easy for him to shift our attention to meaningless things to take God's place....and we mistrust men because we mistrust God and His ability so we naturally mistrust His creation made in His image....that's male and female.
Jason:
Amen!
We have to educate our young ones because the more and more of them are being poisoned by the world the more and more we are losing them to the streets and bad influences who become more of a father figure to them then true men of God have been
we have to bring the VILLAGE BACK TO THE CHILD
Daniel:
that we definitely do...but first we have to trust the village enough to leave our child there.
Jason:
put all this together because our men our only understanding the fellowship of a bullet and getting that money right now instead of and education and most importantly God
Daniel:
and that irritates me....how can you love money more than you love your own brother? but this is the root of that well known Bible verse that states the love of money is the root of all evil....and since they have chosen to make money their God, blasphemy is not tolerated not even by family, preachers, or even God Himself......and that is a most dangerous state of mind. If somehow we can get them to realize their greatness is not conditional on how much money they make but true greatness in only dependent on how much they reflect the light of Christ....for outside of Him ALL is VANITY. But they have been raised in a generation in an age that believes that Christ is the great deception and everything deserves more than He does....you believe in 2012 but won't believe in the God that made Time exist.......the beginning of knowledge is the reverent fear of the Lord....knowledge is the beginning of wisdom....and wisdom leads a man in all his paths.....the sooner we start teaching Godly foundation the better....human education void of God is the highest form of vanity in existence
First off man has been misdefined.....told that he's as good as what he produces...when a man is what he does, not what he has to show....that line of thinking corrupts relationships both with women and with other men and ultimately with God Himself....for they cease being images of God and become an image of created matter......
Jason:
men have been uneducated by our forefathers
many things have played an influence in bringing down the foundation of manhood
Jason:
drugs, alochol
the miseducation of men mistreating their women in front of their sons
Jason:
men out here not seeing their true potential because the enemy fill their mind with poison
Daniel:
yes men have been not educated by the fathers and reeducated by society and those men went on to teach their retaught philosophy to their sons...which was not at all how or what they were to learn....when God instituted family the man was taught by God and the man was to teach the family according to how God taught him and what God taught him he was.....men got away from teaching and even being taught...and as a result, everything that men have touched has become corrupted. they don't know what makes them up....they don't know what makes up the woman therefore they cannot understand how to raise sons and daughters and seek anything to fill that God void....be it drugs alcohol women or other pleasures.....
Jason:
the enemy knows how to break down the foundation of men by taking away the leader in their household! We as men have to come together no matter what for the Glory of the Lord
Daniel:
we allowed him to break down the foundation by ignoring the true foundation.....God. once we did that, it was easy for him to shift our attention to meaningless things to take God's place....and we mistrust men because we mistrust God and His ability so we naturally mistrust His creation made in His image....that's male and female.
Jason:
Amen!
We have to educate our young ones because the more and more of them are being poisoned by the world the more and more we are losing them to the streets and bad influences who become more of a father figure to them then true men of God have been
we have to bring the VILLAGE BACK TO THE CHILD
Daniel:
that we definitely do...but first we have to trust the village enough to leave our child there.
Jason:
put all this together because our men our only understanding the fellowship of a bullet and getting that money right now instead of and education and most importantly God
Daniel:
and that irritates me....how can you love money more than you love your own brother? but this is the root of that well known Bible verse that states the love of money is the root of all evil....and since they have chosen to make money their God, blasphemy is not tolerated not even by family, preachers, or even God Himself......and that is a most dangerous state of mind. If somehow we can get them to realize their greatness is not conditional on how much money they make but true greatness in only dependent on how much they reflect the light of Christ....for outside of Him ALL is VANITY. But they have been raised in a generation in an age that believes that Christ is the great deception and everything deserves more than He does....you believe in 2012 but won't believe in the God that made Time exist.......the beginning of knowledge is the reverent fear of the Lord....knowledge is the beginning of wisdom....and wisdom leads a man in all his paths.....the sooner we start teaching Godly foundation the better....human education void of God is the highest form of vanity in existence
Chance Meeting
she knows her physical beauty is only a shell determined to leave a legacy behind when she dies
daily she fights so her flesh meets demise she's much much more than meets the eyes
she's a real prize but she's not one to be won or fought over
she's a lover of many things but none greater than Jehovah
and any man that is to love her must love Him more than he loves to love her
she sees what she wants and she goes after it her vision is superb
although she has been hurt in the past her walls are not incredibly high and vast
she knows what is acceptable and what is not tolerable because she's in that Word
checking scripture on every sermon heard
diligent and driven she is every man's wife description
but she never places herself on a pedestal she knows her propensity to fall from the perch
this woman lives her life knowing that God is able to take all of her hurts
the pain in her past that would have crippled the average woman she smiles
and with her ever graceful style
attributes her ability to the cross and the work on the tree
she sees the reality is that it could easily have been me
caught up in earthquakes famine and disease
yet God saw fit to spare me
she knows she lives each day by new grace and new mercy
and she finds great joy in passionately working
working to expose truths to those shrouded in darkness
working to give hearts of flesh to those who have become cold and heartless
she does all that she does to glorify the Lord because she knows how to serve
and for that reason she never gets unnerved
by what goes on around her within her world
she just reaches out to touch and teach she realizes growth makes women out of girls
and she just wishes that they realize their potential is only as limited as they make it
for those who don't realize this her heart is breaking
she's devoted to developing herself and others
she's just a lover
she loves humanity but hates all the depravity
poetically she flies free
I stop as I gaze at her body of work and it blows my mind
because she is a breath sent from the Divine
daily she fights so her flesh meets demise she's much much more than meets the eyes
she's a real prize but she's not one to be won or fought over
she's a lover of many things but none greater than Jehovah
and any man that is to love her must love Him more than he loves to love her
she sees what she wants and she goes after it her vision is superb
although she has been hurt in the past her walls are not incredibly high and vast
she knows what is acceptable and what is not tolerable because she's in that Word
checking scripture on every sermon heard
diligent and driven she is every man's wife description
but she never places herself on a pedestal she knows her propensity to fall from the perch
this woman lives her life knowing that God is able to take all of her hurts
the pain in her past that would have crippled the average woman she smiles
and with her ever graceful style
attributes her ability to the cross and the work on the tree
she sees the reality is that it could easily have been me
caught up in earthquakes famine and disease
yet God saw fit to spare me
she knows she lives each day by new grace and new mercy
and she finds great joy in passionately working
working to expose truths to those shrouded in darkness
working to give hearts of flesh to those who have become cold and heartless
she does all that she does to glorify the Lord because she knows how to serve
and for that reason she never gets unnerved
by what goes on around her within her world
she just reaches out to touch and teach she realizes growth makes women out of girls
and she just wishes that they realize their potential is only as limited as they make it
for those who don't realize this her heart is breaking
she's devoted to developing herself and others
she's just a lover
she loves humanity but hates all the depravity
poetically she flies free
I stop as I gaze at her body of work and it blows my mind
because she is a breath sent from the Divine
(tm)
Heaven & Hell....Reality Check.
First off Heaven is not for everybody but those God called elected and has chosen and whom have answered God's call with a yes Lord. Not a physical yes, but a spiritual yes. Heaven is specifically set apart for the set apart. Heaven is not another physical plane of existence but it is spiritual in nature. Everything in Heaven reflects Jesus, the Light of Heaven which is why the streets are clear Gold and the walls are of precious stone to reflect as much Light (Jesus)as possible. The rest? Spiritual as well for your bodies no longer exist in the natural state but in a transfigured state to further reflect Jesus and His Light. heaven is not about your rewards physically, but about your rewards spiritually. You get rewarded with a crown related to your works which you cast at the feet of God because those works were not done for man, or simply for some blessing of God, but God Himself. You get rewarded with no sickness, no pain and no death because you are back in the original state of creation. A people for God's glory dwelling in God's glory. Everything in Heaven is spiritual and God-related in it's nature. No. Heaven is not for you because it wasn't earned by what you wanted but by what God wanted. Heaven is God's place of existence which is why those who have honored God in Earth are allowed the privilege and honor of being with God of seeing God face to face. Because you honored Him when you couldn't see Him but He could see you, He chooses to give you the privilege of seeing His face. Conversely Hell is a place of spiritual darkness given over to Lucifer or Satan to rule over the souls which followed darkness all the days of their lives or who had chosen to forsake the light for the darkness of man's empty philosophy. Hell is a place of eternal torment, but your physical body does not suffer at all. Your spirit your soul suffers because it is made aware of God's love it is made aware of His absence, His mercy, His love, His compassion. But the soul is made acutely aware of the hatred Satan always has had for it simply because of the fact that God made it, handcrafted it and cherished it while God had it in the fires crafting it after Himself. Satan can still see that even in the darkness and so Satan hates all who come thru Hell's gates. Hell is not a place of physical fire but your soul longs to be free of the oppression and hatred of it. Weeping and gnashing of teeth ring a bell? Slavery produced those same effects on slaves. so think about it, your soul is shackled to its sin and your soul feels the pain of death every second of every minute of every hour of every day of every instant of eternity. But it can't die. This is just a snippet of the reality of Heaven and Hell....there is not time enough or words enough to adequately describe their reality versus what people have been fed. (tm)
Pressing
Every now and then we all need some pressing
some stressing
some pain a little rain
a little trouble to remind us it is only by His might and name
that we even remain
and I would be ashamed to say my life never has it's peaks and valleys
that I never questioned if God ever really had me
everybody needs some balance and some times you need to lose your balance
so you can realize you don't draw breath on your own supply
sickness comes and goes those we love dearly die
and we clearly are distressed as to why why me and why now
we ask all the questions we can we even wish to know how
how will deliverance come we seek an answer but God seemingly provides none
in the toughest times of your test God removes the hand that once blessed
just
to see if you would seek His heart when you can't see his hands
just to remind you that life is not always about you and your demands
God has a master plan
and sometimes He has to scratch your grandiose plans
because honestly sometimes they are just in His way and not His will
yet and still
you are pressed pushed primed and made able to take the twists and turns of life
stronger with every tear you cry
stronger with every prayer prayed no longer are you in haste but now you are willing to wait
because you know God can and will make His way
in His own eternal time not your own human estimations
trials come to grow your patience thru tribulation
so do not despair when God chooses to begin pressing
He's just trying to extract what makes you precious (tm)
some stressing
some pain a little rain
a little trouble to remind us it is only by His might and name
that we even remain
and I would be ashamed to say my life never has it's peaks and valleys
that I never questioned if God ever really had me
everybody needs some balance and some times you need to lose your balance
so you can realize you don't draw breath on your own supply
sickness comes and goes those we love dearly die
and we clearly are distressed as to why why me and why now
we ask all the questions we can we even wish to know how
how will deliverance come we seek an answer but God seemingly provides none
in the toughest times of your test God removes the hand that once blessed
just
to see if you would seek His heart when you can't see his hands
just to remind you that life is not always about you and your demands
God has a master plan
and sometimes He has to scratch your grandiose plans
because honestly sometimes they are just in His way and not His will
yet and still
you are pressed pushed primed and made able to take the twists and turns of life
stronger with every tear you cry
stronger with every prayer prayed no longer are you in haste but now you are willing to wait
because you know God can and will make His way
in His own eternal time not your own human estimations
trials come to grow your patience thru tribulation
so do not despair when God chooses to begin pressing
He's just trying to extract what makes you precious (tm)
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